Moment of Truth

Dear someone,

It’s not just now that I’ve realized that “LOVE” is truly “BLIND” … because in the first place you’re not my ideal guy but rather the opposite. In spite of your imperfections which I couldn’t count, I still decided to continue loving you!!! Aside from being “BLIND”, love is “CRAZY” too!!! Crazy in the sense that you can make the wrong seem right and the right nothing from me… I never complained because “AGAIN” of the damn reason that I love you… what matters most to me is to see you happy with you. I’ve eaten my pride… I do things I don’t actually do because for me those are sacred, just between two persons are involved and are committed wholeheartedly to each other. Let’s just say that I am madly involved with you. I never followed what I think was right since I choose to be wrong for you!!! Many times this thought crossed my mind,” I was going you too for already… even the thought of going you everything including my body and my soul just to make you stay…

My heart is tired already, tired of waiting for you. I know I won’t get anything that I’m just wasting time, effort and love on you…

Before I thought I will survive by solely loving you and not asking for anything in return. For me, to love you is enough. I’m not expecting you to love me too either… but, I was wrong… because I know, at the end of this fantasy; I will be the one to suffer the most… It felt as though I’m killing myself softly and slowly.

But after all the hunting I’ve been through, I’ve learned my lessons the hard way, I will never let my heart take over my mind again!!! Being foolish for you play the game wisely the next time around if you still choose to stay just for one reason, to shed my heart from al the pains you’ve caused me… Are you really hurting me knowingly or unintentionally??? That I do not know. You’re the one who knows because you win the game.

Don’t worry, I do not regret everything that happened between the two of us because at some point… that’s what I’ve wanted and I’m ready for that. There are also things I want to thank you!!! You’ve taught me a lot thing… You made me feel loved and wanted when we are together… to have my first date with a guy I like, definitely it’s you… You even gave me my first taste of a real KISS which I longed for… For all that THANK YOU!!!

Thank you… for letting me experience having butterflies in my stomach!!! For hugging me so close to you and letting me feel your breath on my cheeks… making my heartbeat faster!!! For making me feel sad when you won’t even care to text me… making me miss you so badly that I could even cry quietly on my bed without anyone knowing it… A big THANKS!!! For making realized that fairytales do not happen and there is no such thing as a happy ending which I dreamed for us… Lastly, for making me realized that I am HUMAN, capable of LOVING… yet capable of being hurt as well!!!

There’s nothing that I can do but to wish you happiness without bitterness in my heart. May you find happiness you were looking for accompanied with contentment you never found in me… May you wholly love with all your heart by the time you found the right girl for you and may she love you more than I have loved you…

I do hope and pray that what you’ve done to me won’t happen to you. And care anymore; I still do… I just don’t want to see you hurting because it’s as if I am feeling the pain too!!! I was whole again when I found you… But ironically, when I loved you, I came back to the broken pieces I was before……THANK YOU for making me WHOLE…… and GODBLESS for BREAKING ME… =’C 

With a Bleeding Heart,

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