WHO AM I, BEFORE & NOW?

Me before, I’m doing my best to make my life became successful. It’s because that I am the eldest of the 7 children of my parents. My mindset is I need to sustain all the needs of my family at time; I’m still single or not yet married.

I am very responsible even if my wages are small. It’s fine for me as long that I have an income.

I believed that being responsible or martyr is enough already in life, but it’s not! Because not all the time, I can do what I want, solve all problems and worse, end all with a happy ending. Especially when me and my boyfriend broke up.

I am so depressed and disappointed. I never expected that it would happen. For almost 4 years were in relationship, still he cheated on me. I keep on crying every night, even if I saw lovers in street or jeep – it makes me cry, especially when I’m alone.

I cry out to GOD and says,” LORD why? It causes me too much pain. I’ll give up! Yes LORD! I admit that your more powerful than me!”.

As time goes by, when I encounter GOD’s love and as make myself busy to him, after the tragedy happened. He restored me and filled my emptiness. He molded my heart again and make me realized that apart from him; I am failed, I am lost, I am nothing. Without him, my life and time are wasted.

Now, I quit doing with my own. I can’t live without Jesus Christ anymore. I keep on reading my Bible daily. Make my devotional always. Keep on communicating to GOD through my daily prayers – morning and night. Avoid myself into temper. Understand and love others. To obey what’s GOD is for me.